Dear God,
They are people out there, why did You choose me?
I mean with so many scars, brokenness, underlying issues and mess up in my decision-making.
I’m sorry that I try so hard to gain the approval of men and I see myself going back and forth.
Sometimes, I get wandered off and my ears are filled with voices.
Believing in the lies of the devil, I’m sorry.
Number of times, I don’t even know I suppressed (brush off) my feelings
because I don’t see the need to tell You and to cry out to You when I’m hurt.
Thank You for allowing me to grief and even collect my tears into Your jar.
I’ve been afraid of the future and uncertainties. Up till today, I still do...
Even though, I know You hold my future in Your Almighty hand.
Those confusions and my mess up make me become a prodigal daughter.
Fear had consumed me and had robbed my joy away from You since then.
Countless times, You grab me immediately from stumbling or falling or going to the deep sea.
Countless times, I am stuck in nowhere or maybe running in circles, You wait for me patiently to return Home where Presence is.
Thank You for not giving up on me when I have given up on myself. Let my faith rise and my heart believes because You are more than I ever wanted and I’m Yours forever. Here I Am Send Me!
Your daughter
19.09.2020
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Listen to Dear God by Cory Asbury
